“Let go, and let God deal with it.”
This is where I get real personal about myself in hopes it can bring y’all to a better place. Out of everything I’ve published, I urge my friends and family to read this one the most.
I have not written since last November, yet I recently had a lot of new subscribers. Some of the people who have been subscribed to me and noticed my absence even reached out to say what’s up. It means a lot that people find me interesting enough to keep up with me when I haven’t been very active in a long time. People who have never even met me. I’m not trying to brag nor act like I have a huge following. I don’t. Regardless, it is still overwhelming to me at times, in ways I cannot even communicate. I’m grateful for all of you, therefore you are owed something.
I’m sure you have already noticed this post is different from everything else I published. Well, this isn’t an article. There’s not gonna be any hard core analysis or over arching narratives I’m going to illustrate through words here. Hell, I’m not even making an effort to write formally. If you’re looking for that kind of stuff, I urge you to check out all my other writings.
I’ll tell you how I feel about some of the news recently, but I’m not gonna source anything or explain my thoughts on it too much.
Simply put, it’s all fake. Globalists keep on with fake narratives and psyops in the Ukraine-Russia war pushing more countries to get involved in any way possible so that they can at last make the New World Order every living person‘s reality. These are the same reasons for the tensions between China and Taiwan becoming a point of focus of the US government and others who are starving for the whole world to fall in their new and dysfunctional order.
What is ultimately scary about all of this is that World War III may have to pop off to make their sick dreams into our living nightmare, and history has proven that those in power are willing to pursue wars of any scale so that they can easily expand their own power control over us.
As for the recent environmental disaster in East Palestine, Ohio, I don’t think it was any accident. As for the Biden administration's complete negligence of the situation, that’s being done on purpose too. East Palestine‘s population is made up of almost only white people, who take up 93.5% of the population. 95.7% if you count white Hispanics. It’s a conservative town that voted for Trump. It’s chock-full of blue-collar workers who have stuck to their old ways.
Biden is the perfect puppet to use in this situation. When he’s not being senile, he’s made it clear how he feels about people like those in East Palestine. He, nor his handlers who probably devised this disaster, give a fuck about the people of East Palestine or anyone like them. This is the message they are sending to us: they are willing to set us on fire, watch us burn, and laugh while we do. This was perfectly illustrated for us earlier this week when Joy Behar of “The View” put the blame for the disaster on the people of East Palestine simply because most of them voted for Trump. She’s not in control of anything, but she’s a celebrity using her voice to say exactly what those who are in control want her to say, because all the stupid people like her (and there’s a lot) will eat those words up and make it integral in their attitudes towards us.
But in the big picture, none of this matters. Shit like this has happened before and it’s going to keep happening. I’ve known this, but only recently have come to the realization that none of this matters. Instead of telling you myself why this all doesn’t matter I’ll let the Big Man upstairs clarify it for y’all:
John 17:14-17 (KJV)
“I have given them thy word; and the world hath hated them, because they are not of the world, even as I am not of the world.
I pray not that thou shouldest take them out of the world, but that thou shouldest keep them from the evil.
They are not of the world, even as I am not of the world.
Sanctify them through thy truth: thy word is truth”.
So, while what is going on in this world does not really matter, what does still matter and always will matter is the truth. The truth can only be found through Jesus Christ, whom we should all act more like. It is His word that makes sense of the madhouse that is this world, and His word only that can guide us through this world.
Ephesians 6:12
“For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.”
We are only blessed with one life, and we should honor that blessing as much as possible. We should not be stuck living in fear if we know the truth. The truth is that Jesus won. If we realize this and embrace His word, we too will win. And winning in this regard takes many forms, none of which are material. Rather they are our culture, our land, our history, our community, and most importantly our families. When we embrace the truth we will achieve these forms of winning which our sick world works so hard to pervert and or destroy for their soulless agenda.
Some of you probably find what I’m saying here stupid, but it’s not. We all have our gods. I simply have chosen mine to be the one true and honest God. Criticize that all you want. I used to criticize Christians and ridicule the Bible, but it was all done out of ignorance stemming from a hateful place in my heart. That hateful void in me still exists, and I am trying my hardest to fill it, as I have been forever.
That void in me opened up when I lost my papa at 11 to natural causes, and it fully took control of me when my best friend committed suicide when I was 13. In a little over two years, I lost two of the people closest to me. My papa‘s death I understood was natural. My only anger I ever held about it is that I didn’t get to know him as well as I could have. He was and always will be my hero however, and I always feel his (as well as my other grandfather‘s) spirit inside of me. So now I have accepted his death and I’m ok with it. That was God‘s plan, which is what my family has always told me, it just took a lot for me to finally understand that.
As for my best friend’s suicide though, that still cuts like a knife. It only cuts me more as I grow up and realize how fucked up this world has to be in order for a 12 year old to conceptualize and go through with the idea of blasting himself away with a shotgun. He was my best friend. He was 12 and I was 13. We had our lives ahead of us when he did that and I can’t help but always wonder what it would be like if he was here. I still have not accepted his death, as it feels unreal. It feels like one of his shitty and fucked up jokes he used to play on me. It feels like any second he’s gonna pop out of nowhere, letting me know he got me and I’m gonna be pissed, but still laughing my ass off. But that’s not gonna happen. I know that and yet it is still hard to accept.
It only got worse after his death when it felt like everyone I went to school with only knew me from then on as being “the kid whose best friend killed himself.” Many people I’ve met since his death have no idea about my best friend, and that’s because for a long time I just ignored the fact that he ever existed in the first place. I started doing this probably a year after he died when I noticed people who never even knew him were using his death to gain some sort of clout in school. It disgusted me. It definitely played a huge part in the hatred that would fester in me and stick around for a long time. I put on a mask to try and escape this, but that mask only took me under even more.
As I went through high school with this mask on, I hated the world and everyone in it for a very long time. High school was terrible for me, and it was no one else’s fault but mine. This is something a lot of people close to me may not know, but I would drink alcohol constantly by myself in my room throughout high school. I smoked pot for the first time in sixth grade, but it really took a hold of me when I was 15, for better and for worse. My biggest regrets are popping pills for a time during my junior year, and also taking lots of acid. There’s not a day that goes by that I don't regret doing that. There’s not a day that goes by that I don't feel so disgusting for ever having done that.
During this time, I allowed a lot of shitty people to take advantage of me and hurt me, and I took advantage of and hurt a lot of people who were genuinely trying to be my friend. I feel a lot of regret over that too. Yes, I was young and full of ill feelings, but that is no excuse.
It was finally during my senior year that I began to find myself again. That was the year I discovered Ron Paul. What he stood for spoke to me, and what I learned through him transformed me for the better. I began to take my life more seriously. I began to be the man I am, and I killed off the sorry little boy I was.
It was around this time too that my girlfriend began to become serious about her relationship with God. While I supported her, I was still hesitant. However, it was through conversations with her that I realized the world I dream of can only be possible through what Jesus Christ advocated for. So I started to read the Bible here and there. I started talking about God and the Bible to anyone who talked with me about it. I’d begin to learn I was very wrong about all of my negative assumptions regarding Christianity, and organized religion in general. Religion seems to be the only thing that connects to the old world anymore, and it’s through the old world that humans can reach their full potential and prosper in that. That matters especially in this world today where so many of us feel alienated by this world and confused about who we are.
I'm not perfect, nor am I trying to be. I would not yet even consider myself a good Christian, but that is for God to decide. I’m 22 years old. I feel stuck just as much as everyone else my age does. I feel at times as if there is nothing for me in this world. What keeps me going is all the blessings I have in life. I’m alive. I’m healthy. I have a job and I’m working towards my goals. I have some great friends that I know would take a bullet for me, and a family that has grown and I know will always be behind my back. Those blessings remind me why I need to stay strong and keep on keeping on. And because of God, I know that I can create something in this world not only for myself but hopefully for the betterment of everything and everyone I love, because through him all things are possible.
I am still running from my demons, and I may always be running from them. But I know I’m running towards a better future for myself and not the dark past I was once in. I hope and pray that many of you will one day feel the same.
As for what is going on in this world, it’s good to pay attention. We can use the events of this world to spread the truth. That’s why I started this publication, not to be a journalist (I’m not that) but rather to simply call it like I see it, and tell you why I see it that way. That being said, we shouldn’t let their fear porn control our lives and allow ourselves to be voluntarily under their control because of that. We’re up against sinister forces, and there really is no understanding them. Like George Carlin says, it’s a big club and you ain’t in it.
Regardless of that, I have God on my side, and because of that I have nothing to fear, and only victory to strive for. I need to keep reminding myself of that, and writing this out sure does help.
I’m on my road to redemption, and I’m only going to get off when I make it to that paradise above the skies we call Heaven.
I can’t wait to make it to Heaven, but until I do, I’m going to keep showing the Lord how grateful I am for the gift of life, and show Him how much I desire to be with Him when this thing we call life is all said and done for myself.
The world may be ugly, but life is still beautiful. And you all are beautiful as long as you don’t allow the world to keep you from being yourself. And if you feel you’re too bad of a person to ever come to the Lord or even just redeem yourself, just remember Jesus sacrificed himself for our sins. God sent his Son to save us sinners, not to force us to become Saints. Take solace in that, and whatever ill feelings you may have, let go and let God deal with it.
I draw parallels in your life exp in my journey too & the way you model the current status of 🌎, a perfectly non intuitive (kaliyuga) realm with incrased chaos by the moment but like you said "god is there on my side, I have nothing to fear" 🫡
God bless brosef 🙏🏽
Over n out